A Mother’s Guilt

Listen my son as you lie fast asleep
Guiltily by your bedside, I creep
You look like an innocent angel
With a smile on your lips and a curl on your cheek

I recall in the morning I scolded you
For spilling your food while you ate
You waved goodbye and I
Frowned back as I rushed getting late

When I returned you came rushing to me
Eagerly waiting to be taken out
I impatiently waived you aside
Cooking and laundry were all I thought about

In the evening, you hesitated at the door
With a hurt look in your eyes
What is it now? I snapped
I broke a heart and didn’t even realize

At night you ran in a tempestuous plunge
Threw your arms around my neck, and made me start
kissed me, your arms tightened
With affection, God set blooming in your heart

A wave of deep remorse swept over me
I didn’t see your little heart which was as big as the dawn itself
When angry words had arisen
I should have bit my tongue and chided myself

But tomorrow will be a new day
When I shall tell you
I suffer when you suffer and am overjoyed when you laugh
You are my life and I will always love you.